Chest Pains.

I have shed no tears yet. And often felt that I have no time to be sad or to mourn anything. Isn’t that far better than having all the time in the world? I thought so. But what of these consistent chest pains I walk around trying to ignore. They are very present and I feel them everywhere I go. It’s all very physical now. Being too exhausted or busy to lend time to your sadness makes the pain more physical than emotional. I am numb of emotion and often I imagine that I might be better off. But if only this bulk on  my chest could disolve, this heaviness that I am forced to carry while performing my everyday chores. ..